An imaginary conversation about change

You know, I am really not very good at this “embracing change” shit. 

And this is the first time you’ve noticed it?

No. I have known it for quite a while now. 

And?

And…I do try not to freak out about it. 

Try?

Shut up. Yes. Try. 

And?

Are you a psychoanalyst or something? Can you say something other than “and?”

Yes. 

Ass. 

What is it that is so hard about change?

Not all change. Just some things. 

Like what?

Like my friends moving away. I am not a fan. At all. 

No. But is it good for them?

I don’t know. It could be. 

Is your concern mostly about how it will impact you?

Of course! Everyone knows I am selfish at heart. 

You aren’t as selfish as you think you are. 

No?

No. 

Thanks. 

You’re welcome. 

It’s just really hard to keep up with it all. It’s not that I am unhappy with my life at all. I am very happy right now, so when things change I worry about it upsetting that balance. 

But things always change. 

I know. But it is hard. 

Yeah. Sometimes. 

No one minds a change that involves an increased level of happiness. 

No. I am sorry that your friends moved. 

Me too. I know that everything else is great. 

You do have a pretty sweet life. 

I really do. Most changes really do work out. Things always seem to get better. 

Do they?

They do. 

So what are you worried about?

The interim. 

What?

The transition between the good things is hard sometimes. 

So, you are worried about a transitory period of slight discomfort I between great things happening?

Yes. Yes I am. Also, you suck. 

I love you, too. 

Good night, you…

Sleep tight. 

***much love to my emotional attorney and Stuff as they move to their new life in Central Oregon. I will miss you. Thank you for being part of my life. Fuckers. 

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