{"id":10864,"date":"2017-11-05T09:30:29","date_gmt":"2017-11-05T17:30:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10864"},"modified":"2017-11-05T09:29:14","modified_gmt":"2017-11-05T17:29:14","slug":"going-fallow","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10864","title":{"rendered":"Going fallow"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have a head for business and a body for sin. Unfortunately, the sin appears to be gluttony.<\/p>\n

–Jenny Colgan<\/p>\n

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Curiosity is gluttony. To see is to devour.<\/p>\n

–Victor Hugo<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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The other night, as I was binge watching “the Shahs of Sunset,” I decided something: my brain is more disengaged than I would like it to be. I\u00a0 haven’t been reading\u00a0 anything (much), I have no projects going that I’m longing to complete, I haven’t been writing.\u00a0 My brain has been-to borrow a farming term-fallow.<\/p>\n

Is that good or bad?<\/p>\n

Spending more time watching the messed up lives of a bunch of wealthy Los Angeles Iranians is not something I aspire to, although I do love Asa’s caftan collection and the over the top gold jewelry they all wear. I don’t like to “should” myself, but I really should find something better to do with my time than this. At the very least, make something while I’m watching?<\/p>\n

The lack of a creative outlet for my imagination and hands is dangerous for me. Mentally and physically dangerous. Left to my own devices without the ability to imagine things and implement them in some way,\u00a0 I’m the living embodiment of “satan finds work for idle hands…” and not even in ways that are interesting. I mean, if I’m going to be self destructive it should at least be interesting.<\/p>\n

The sad truth of all of my bad habits is that they are very dull. No one wants to hear about gluttony or sloth. They are the least sexy of the Seven Deadly Sins. Perhaps I should try wrath, vainglory or greed?\u00a0 \u00a0I already have a tinge of lust, pride and sorrow.<\/p>\n

I’m certainly not giving up lust or melancholy. I’m a November girl and Scorpio has got to\u00a0 scorp!<\/p>\n

Avarice\/greed\u00a0 is not my thing at all.<\/p>\n

Do you suppose I should try to work toward vainglory? I do have a very high opinion of myself, but it’s offset by an equally low opinion of myself. I suspect I could get to vainglory eventually, but I might need some therapy to boost my ego a bit. Or is it my id that’s deficient?<\/p>\n

Wrath? Occasionally. I can be irritable if I think people are stupid, but to get up a good smoldering ire takes a long time for me. It’s generally something people have earned. I could probably achieve wrath, but I’m not sure it’s a lifestyle I could truly embrace.<\/p>\n

Maybe I should work on the sins I already have before trying to get new ones.<\/p>\n

Wait, what?<\/p>\n

I’m not supposed to increase the number of sins in my life? I’m supposed to decrease them?? Who says? Everybody? Well, that’s silly.\u00a0 What do you mean, I went on a tangent?<\/p>\n

Apparently, I was saying something about my brain going fallow.<\/p>\n

At least lack of mental discipline is not one of the Seven Deadly Sins….but I will try to do a better job of not letting my brain and body turn into marshmallow fluff from now on.<\/p>\n

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