{"id":10905,"date":"2017-11-02T19:22:22","date_gmt":"2017-11-03T02:22:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10905"},"modified":"2018-04-09T19:27:31","modified_gmt":"2018-04-10T02:27:31","slug":"an-imaginary-conversation-about-being-lost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10905","title":{"rendered":"An imaginary conversation about being lost"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Can you tell me what happened?<\/p>\n<p><em>I don&#8217;t want to.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>You asked for me, so I\u2019m here.<\/p>\n<p><em>You don\u2019t have to be here. You can leave.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>You want me to leave? Why did you ask for me if you don&#8217;t want me here?<\/p>\n<p><em>It\u2019s not that, but you shouldn&#8217;t be here.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>If there&#8217;s something I can help you with, I want to.<\/p>\n<p><em>You can&#8217;t help me.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Do you know how you got here?<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>What do you remember?<\/p>\n<p><em>I can&#8217;t talk about this with you.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Why shouldn&#8217;t I be here?<\/p>\n<p><em>You don&#8217;t want to be involved in this.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Your brother said you asked for me and put me on the visiting list. So I&#8217;m here.<\/p>\n<p><em>Please don&#8217;t.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Don&#8217;t?<\/p>\n<p><em>Don&#8217;t treat me like I&#8217;m crazy.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>What?<\/p>\n<p><em>The way you&#8217;re looking at me. I can&#8217;t stand it.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Obviously I&#8217;m worried about you.<\/p>\n<p><em>It&#8217;s none of your business.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>If I&#8217;m your friend, and you asked for me, I hope that means I can be concerned.<\/p>\n<p><em>You&#8217;re not concerned. You&#8217;re gloating.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Gloating because you\u2019re here? No. God. No.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>You\u2019re smiling. I can\u2019t stand it. There\u2019s nothing wrong with me. I\u2019m fine.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Smiling is my default nervous face. Why are you here?<\/p>\n<p><i>It isn\u2019t my fault. I\u2019m a good person.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Of course you\u2019re a good person. No one is questioning that.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>They are. Everyone thinks I deserve this.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Can you tell me what happened?<\/p>\n<p><i>No<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>No, you can\u2019t or no you won\u2019t?<\/p>\n<p><i>No. I don\u2019t know. Don\u2019t remember.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>OK<\/p>\n<p><i>You don\u2019t believe me, do you?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Actually I do. What\u2019s the last thing you remember?<\/p>\n<p><i>Being at work. Then I was here.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Nothing in between?<\/p>\n<p><i>No. Everyone keeps asking me. No.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Has anyone told you?<\/p>\n<p><i>Yes<\/i>.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Do you believe them?<\/p>\n<p><i>I don\u2019t want to. Did they tell you?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Your brother did.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>And you\u2019re here anyway?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>And I\u2019m here anyway.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>Why<\/i>?<\/p>\n<p>You asked for me. You probably don\u2019t remember. &nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>No. You aren\u2019t here because you love me?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Dumb ass. That too. My time is up. Would you like me to come again?<\/p>\n<p><i>Heh. I can always make you come again.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Well that\u2019s promising, anyway. You\u2019ve still got the sense of humor of a 12 year old.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>Somethings never change.<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Love you.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>Always. Even when I don\u2019t want to remember anything else.&nbsp;<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Can you tell me what happened? I don&#8217;t want to. You asked for me, so I\u2019m here. You don\u2019t have to be here. You can leave. You want me to leave? Why did you ask for me if you don&#8217;t want me here? It\u2019s not that, but you shouldn&#8217;t be here. If there&#8217;s something I &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10905\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">An imaginary conversation about being lost<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10905","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-imaginary-conversation"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-2PT","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":11471,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11471","url_meta":{"origin":10905,"position":0},"title":"An imaginary conversation about compliments","author":"Michelle","date":"April 10, 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"So the other night, this guy told me he likes me because our conversations are random and weird. 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