{"id":11561,"date":"2018-04-29T09:52:08","date_gmt":"2018-04-29T16:52:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11561"},"modified":"2018-05-01T06:16:52","modified_gmt":"2018-05-01T13:16:52","slug":"training-myself-not-to-be-ticklish","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11561","title":{"rendered":"An imaginary conversation about not being ticklish"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I like it when you do that&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>It doesn&#8217;t tickle?<\/p>\n<p>No, I&#8217;m not ticklish.<\/p>\n<p>Anywhere?<\/p>\n<p>No, when I was 8 years old or so, I decided not to be ticklish anymore.<\/p>\n<p>Is that even possible?<\/p>\n<p>Yep. I did it, so it must be possible.<\/p>\n<p>Is that a challenge?<\/p>\n<p>Not at all. I am confident in my unticklishness at this point.<\/p>\n<p>I may still have to test that statement.<\/p>\n<p>I would expect no less. I am ready for the test at any time.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve never heard of anyone getting over being ticklish before.<\/p>\n<p>It wasn&#8217;t easy.<\/p>\n<p>How did it work?<\/p>\n<p>I had to get someone to tickle me, and resist giving in to the ticklish feeling. Over and over. Eventually I just stopped being ticklish.<\/p>\n<p>That sounds fun.<\/p>\n<p>It wasn&#8217;t. I hated being tickled.<\/p>\n<p>Who did you get to tickle you?<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t remember. That&#8217;s weird. It seems like I should remember that.<\/p>\n<p>Some random stranger off the street?<\/p>\n<p>No, it must have been a neighbor or a friend or something.<\/p>\n<p>A boy or a girl?<\/p>\n<p>Seems like it would have to have been a boy. But I really don&#8217;t remember. It could have been one of my friends, I guess.<\/p>\n<p>If you&#8217;re expecting to be tickled, it would be fairly easy not to give in.<\/p>\n<p>Yeah. The surprise tickles were harder to overcome. It took quite a while. Maybe a year. I think it was when I was in the\u00a0 third grade.<\/p>\n<p>Did it ever get to a point where you liked being tickled?<\/p>\n<p>No. Eventually it was just\u00a0 neutral. Sometimes people, well, always boys, wouldn&#8217;t believe me.\u00a0 They&#8217;d tickle me. Get annoyed because it didn&#8217;t make me squirm.<\/p>\n<p>Did you tell them you weren&#8217;t ticklish?<\/p>\n<p>Yep. But they never believed me.<\/p>\n<p>Then what would they do?<\/p>\n<p>When they didn&#8217;t get a reaction they would tickle harder and harder until they&#8217;d just get angry. I&#8217;d get even angrier. At recess one boy straddled me and tickled me until he bruised my ribs. It hurt. He was sorry about that after he let me up again.<\/p>\n<p>He felt bad?<\/p>\n<p>No, I kneed him pretty hard in the nuts.<\/p>\n<p>Then he felt bad?<\/p>\n<p>He felt something. I&#8217;ve never liked not having my wishes respected, even if I couldn&#8217;t put it into words.<\/p>\n<p>You felt like it was a violation?<\/p>\n<p>I think I must have, though it was an expected and frequent one. Relatives, friends of parents, bullying older boys&#8230;I hated for them to have that power over me.<\/p>\n<p>Were you always a such a vengeful little girl?<\/p>\n<p>Pretty much.<\/p>\n<p>But you don&#8217;t try to hide it?<\/p>\n<p>Why would I? I was eight at the time. I haven&#8217;t kicked a guy in the nuts for decades.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, good.<\/p>\n<p>You&#8217;re very safe with me. At least physically.<\/p>\n<p>You feel very safe, at least physically. I suspect I might be in some emotional peril.<\/p>\n<p>I sure hope so. I know I am.<\/p>\n<p>Would you feel better if I reassured you that the emotional peril is extreme?<\/p>\n<p>Definitely. You know how I love any sort of reassurance.<\/p>\n<p>I am happy to provide as much as you need.<\/p>\n<p>And you even mean that!<\/p>\n<p>I do.<\/p>\n<p>Well, anyway, I think the discipline involved in getting over being ticklish might have been good training for things later in life.<\/p>\n<p>Like what? Oh&#8230;wait&#8230;a few things just became clearer.<\/p>\n<p>Exactly.<\/p>\n<p>I should probably do a thorough check for spots that might still be ticklish.<\/p>\n<p>You have my permission.<\/p>\n<p>Should I wear a cup in case I find a spot you missed?<\/p>\n<p>I think if you just tell me to be very still you should be safe.<\/p>\n<p>Be very, very, very still. And stop laughing.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I like it when you do that&#8230; It doesn&#8217;t tickle? No, I&#8217;m not ticklish. Anywhere? No, when I was 8 years old or so, I decided not to be ticklish anymore. Is that even possible? Yep. I did it, so it must be possible. Is that a challenge? Not at all. I am confident in &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11561\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">An imaginary conversation about not being ticklish<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"An imaginary conversation about not being ticklish","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[18,20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11561","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-imaginary-conversation","category-random-thoughts"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-30t","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":11042,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11042","url_meta":{"origin":11561,"position":0},"title":"An imaginary conversation about vampires and consent.","author":"Michelle","date":"January 10, 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Do you think it's possible to give consent if one of the people can glamor you into believing anything they want? 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