{"id":11877,"date":"2021-07-31T19:41:10","date_gmt":"2021-08-01T02:41:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11877"},"modified":"2021-07-31T19:41:10","modified_gmt":"2021-08-01T02:41:10","slug":"feelings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11877","title":{"rendered":"Feelings"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Due to stress and the rigors of pandemic life, I am once again on this kick where I\u2019m paying attention to my feelings. One way I\u2019ve coped on the past has been to write about them incessantly in a very public and sometimes embarrassing way.  So that was my plan. Write a little bit. Release some mental energy. But it\u2019s been a year or two since I last visited my website. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That means I had to remember my password. You know how his ends, right? OK, well, obviously I\u2019m a bad writer because I\u2019ve already spoiled the ending in that I\u2019ve clearly logged in successfully and am currently writing about it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But how do I feel about it? Is it good to be back?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Passwords suck. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Clearly I am going to need to actually write frequently enough to remember my username and password or just find some other way of writing out my deepest thoughts. Like a notebook. Gotta love a notebook and pen. Have you seen my handwriting lately though? I\u2019m not sure I even know how to use a pen anymore. And where would the benefit be in writing in a private journal that no one would read? There would be no potential for embarrassing moments at all. That\u2019s not OK. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yeah, you\u2019re right. I still don\u2019t really have a point. I\u2019m thinner now, though. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Due to stress and the rigors of pandemic life, I am once again on this kick where I\u2019m paying attention to my feelings. One way I\u2019ve coped on the past has been to write about them incessantly in a very public and sometimes embarrassing way. So that was my plan. Write a little bit. Release &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11877\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Feelings<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11877","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random-thoughts"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s7lr3R-feelings","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":11071,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11071","url_meta":{"origin":11877,"position":0},"title":"Will she or won\u2019t she?","author":"Michelle","date":"December 31, 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"There are not a lot of things that I am not willing to write about, but there are a few. 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