The other day as I picked through what seemed like a thousand different issues preventing me from logging into the blog, I ran across a setting to have the blog notify me with reminders to write something. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have a feeling I will regret turning it on, especially since I still don\u2019t feel like I have anything to say. It\u2019s all the same drivel about my continuing lack of self confidence, the awesomeness of my friends and family, and how hard it is to not eat all the time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
At least I\u2019m not going to be whining about dating, amirite?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tony continues to be awesome, by the way. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
So what could possibly be so bad that I\u2019m writing about my thoughts again? I\u2019ve gained some weight. Not enough to change my size, but enough. Enough. My jeans are just a little tight, I\u2019m already stressed about work, and it was just enough. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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When the pandemic started, and we all got sent home to work, I was on it. I took up jogging, got up to 4-5 mile runs..walked every day. It was great. Tons of energy, nothing else to do with my time but work and then go for a walk. Nothing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Eventually, as the weather got hot it got harder for me to run. And I started getting dizzy. So I went back to just walking. My motivation wasn\u2019t there anymore. My brain was frazzled. It was like every iota of my mental energy went into work. Work which I feel like I\u2019m doing poorly, though my boss disagrees. I stopped reading anything but the most intellectually void trashy novels. I stopped making things. No knitting, no art. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Tony got me out golfing every week, but I stopped going for my usual daily walks. My eating is OK, but not fantastic. Not sleeping great. Not seeing my wonderful friends and family. Maybe it just stripped me of some sort of ability to rejuvenate. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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So I\u2019m going to see if this helps. Put some words on virtual paper. Work through my thoughts, feelings. Start walking more. Do some knitting. Work my up to reading a book that doesn\u2019t have vampires in it. Maybe it will help. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"