{"id":1522,"date":"2013-09-18T06:05:32","date_gmt":"2013-09-18T13:05:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=1522"},"modified":"2013-09-18T10:52:56","modified_gmt":"2013-09-18T17:52:56","slug":"people-i-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=1522","title":{"rendered":"People I love, let’s spell them out…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Love hurts,
\nlove scars,
\nlove wounds
\nAnd mars, any heart
\nNot tough or strong enough
\nTo take a lot of pain
\n–Nazareth\/Love Hurts<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

I was thinking about some of the people I love yesterday, and wanted to write about them, or recognize them in some way. It would be a nice list. A warm, fuzzy list. Sort of like favorite songs or books. Or things I’m grateful for. Only way better, because, you know, LOVE.<\/p>\n

But then the cold meds started to wear off, my brain got a little less scrambled, and I thought “are you fucking NUTS?!? This is a terrible idea!”<\/p>\n

Why terrible? Well, I mean, duh. Let me count the ways. It really isn’t a good idea in any way at all, because you can’t count love. Some people don’t like seeing their names in print. Some people might feel bad if I wrote that I loved them and they didn’t reciprocate. Some people would be hurt if they were left off the list. I might feel like I have to include people I don’t really love for various reasons.<\/p>\n

So the idea was, rightfully, scrapped.<\/p>\n

Of course, that will leave me forever wondering if you would be more upset if you weren’t on my list?<\/p>\n

Or if you were?<\/p>\n

Would you disapprove of some of the other people on the list?<\/p>\n

Yes, it is quite hard to be me. I think like this all the time. It’s not easy, and I am so glad someone noticed.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

On an only marginally related note, my heart aches. Not because of love, but because coughing has squeezed it too much. It feels disconcertingly like a plain old-fashioned heartache. It makes me feel a little more breakable than I like to feel. Every time I cough, I feel lovesick.<\/p>\n

I’m in the mentally and emotionally awkward position of having to convince my brain that my heart isn’t really<\/em> broken. It just thinks it is.<\/p>\n

Since it thinks its broken it’s making me feel like I am. Which, as we all know, sucks.<\/p>\n

It’s really not the first time I’ve confused love and sickness.<\/p>\n

Probably won’t be the last.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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