{"id":2321,"date":"2013-11-03T06:02:25","date_gmt":"2013-11-03T14:02:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=2321"},"modified":"2013-11-02T23:19:50","modified_gmt":"2013-11-03T06:19:50","slug":"nothing-just-nothing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=2321","title":{"rendered":"Nothing. Just, nothing"},"content":{"rendered":"

The less we say about it the better
\nMake it up as we go along
\nFeet on the ground, head in the sky
\nIt’s okay, I know nothing’s wrong<\/p>\n

–Talking Heads\/This Must Be The Place (Naive Melody)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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Today, I don’t know that I can come up with anything to say.<\/p>\n

We spent all day doing all the crap around the house that I hate to do. I’m pretty sure I did infinite loads of laundry. This time of year, weeks go by when we aren’t at home, so when there’s a non-football weekend everything really piles up. Literally. Dishes. Dirty clothes. Dust bunnies. After chores, we went to a dinner with Mark’s MBA classmates to celebrate them finishing the program, which was fun but involved me being social with a bunch of people I don’t know. That’s hard for me. I think I managed to behave like a moderately normal person for the several hours we were there. It was fun, but it was tiring. Mentally tiring.<\/p>\n

Does that exhaust everyone, or is it just me?\u00a0 I’m terrible at talking to people I don’t know, I always have been. I don’t know how many times people have asked me why I never talk. I feel like I do, but it’s just harder than it seems like it should be. I’m much better around people I know, but even then I need a lot of time on my own. Maybe more so than other people, I need to be quiet.<\/p>\n

And yes, I realize that it was not very long ago that I wasn’t physically able to talk at all and I didn’t like it much. Maybe I think I should ration my spoken words in case they don’t come back all the way.<\/p>\n

Although really what I didn’t like about losing my voice was that I couldn’t laugh or sing. I didn’t really miss talking all that much. I had a great excuse for just listening.<\/p>\n

Maybe what I need is a party specific form of laryngitis…<\/p>\n

Or maybe I just need to sleep.<\/p>\n

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