{"id":3200,"date":"2013-12-28T06:10:44","date_gmt":"2013-12-28T14:10:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=3200"},"modified":"2013-12-27T20:43:35","modified_gmt":"2013-12-28T04:43:35","slug":"big-brown-eyes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=3200","title":{"rendered":"Who am I again?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Well a box of red and a pill or three
\nAnd I’m calling time and temperature just for some company.
\nI wish you were here. I wish I was too.
\nI’ll drink myself to sleeplessness, I always do.
\n–Old 97’s\/Big Brown Eyes\n<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

It’s a little trippy, pun intended, to be sick for long enough, and medicated long enough that you don’t feel quite like yourself for more than a few days. For a person who has always considered herself a thinker and who has been a reader since even before I have memory, it’s a challenge for me to get through the days without being able to focus on a book. Or a thought. Or, uh, a blog. My brain will presumably be back at some point. It will, right?<\/p>\n

I hope it comes back, because although I do love re-reading my entire collection of Christopher Moore, there comes a point at which my brain requires feeding with something other than humor. Something which requires a little analysis. Maybe a little interpretation. Thought.<\/p>\n

I miss thinking.<\/p>\n

And the books are stacking up. Virtually stacking up. I need to read “the Book Thief” and “Underworld.”
\n“the Gardens of Kyoto” and all of the Terry Pratchett Discworlds I got on super sale. “the Taliban Cricket Club.” “the Orchardist.”
\nOh my gosh. I hardly have anything to read. I usually have a much larger stack than this.<\/p>\n

No wonder my brain is shriveling.<\/p>\n

Maybe I should do a little browsing around. See if there’s anything out there that looks interesting…ooh! Like “Under the Volcano….”<\/p>\n

I’ll be back.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Well a box of red and a pill or three And I’m calling time and temperature just for some company. I wish you were here. I wish I was too. I’ll drink myself to sleeplessness, I always do. –Old 97’s\/Big Brown Eyes It’s a little trippy, pun intended, to be sick for long enough, and … Continue reading Who am I again?<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3200","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-words"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-PC","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":8935,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=8935","url_meta":{"origin":3200,"position":0},"title":"an imaginary conversation about brains","author":"Michelle","date":"January 4, 2015","format":false,"excerpt":"I wish I could just turn my brain off sometimes, don't you? 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