{"id":3313,"date":"2014-01-04T06:15:01","date_gmt":"2014-01-04T14:15:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=3313"},"modified":"2014-01-03T22:03:14","modified_gmt":"2014-01-04T06:03:14","slug":"81338-words-in-2013","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=3313","title":{"rendered":"81338 words in 2013"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>So&#8230;that&#8217;s kind of a lot of words. <\/p>\n<p>Definitely a lot more words than I ever expected to write. <\/p>\n<p>When I started up a blog, I didn&#8217;t really have a goal in mind. I think it&#8217;s probably fairly obvious that I still don&#8217;t. Like you haven&#8217;t figured that out about me. What I expected was that I&#8217;d struggle to figure out what to write about, but go like crazy for a month or two, get bored, and quit. That&#8217;s usually what happens when I do something new. I get all hyper-focused for a very short time and then flame out.<\/p>\n<p>That hasn&#8217;t happened yet, and I have no idea why.<\/p>\n<p>I have surprised myself, and in more ways than just the perseverance:<br \/>\nHow much very personal crap I am willing to talk about publicly.<br \/>\nHow little angst that causes me.<br \/>\nThe sheer volume of words I am capable of writing.<br \/>\nHow the words seem to have a will of their own.<br \/>\nHow hard it can be to stop sometimes.<\/p>\n<p>It makes me wonder what I&#8217;ll write next, if what I write will change over time&#8211;or if  what I write will end up changing me.  I&#8217;m curious to see where it will go. It&#8217;s weird, but it feels like I&#8217;m just along for the ride. The words are in charge, and they want out. <\/p>\n<p>Who knows what they could make me do next!<\/p>\n<p>Definitely not me.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m just the scribbler.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>So&#8230;that&#8217;s kind of a lot of words. Definitely a lot more words than I ever expected to write. When I started up a blog, I didn&#8217;t really have a goal in mind. I think it&#8217;s probably fairly obvious that I still don&#8217;t. Like you haven&#8217;t figured that out about me. What I expected was that &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=3313\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">81338 words in 2013<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3313","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-words"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-Rr","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":6511,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=6511","url_meta":{"origin":3313,"position":0},"title":"An imaginary conversation about Steve Miller","author":"Michelle","date":"July 4, 2014","format":false,"excerpt":"You should totally write something about Steve Miller. 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