{"id":3475,"date":"2014-01-17T05:50:13","date_gmt":"2014-01-17T13:50:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=3475"},"modified":"2014-01-16T21:36:54","modified_gmt":"2014-01-17T05:36:54","slug":"handle-with-care","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=3475","title":{"rendered":"Handle with care"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sometimes I dissolve
\nand my eyes glaze over
\nand my head goes empty
\nand my heart gets all numb
\nThen it all shatters
\ninto a million fears<\/p>\n

Sometimes I wake up
\nwith my pillow all wet
\nand my heart in my throat
\nand I don’t even know
\nwhat is happening
\nright inside my own head<\/p>\n

So how can I hope
\nthat anyone else will
\nfigure out what is wrong
\nwhen my eyes glaze over
\nand it all goes dark
\nand everything is wrong<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sometimes I dissolve and my eyes glaze over and my head goes empty and my heart gets all numb Then it all shatters into a million fears Sometimes I wake up with my pillow all wet and my heart in my throat and I don’t even know what is happening right inside my own head … Continue reading Handle with care<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3475","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-words"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-U3","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":7356,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=7356","url_meta":{"origin":3475,"position":0},"title":"Hard to believe…","author":"Michelle","date":"September 15, 2014","format":false,"excerpt":"And I see newspapers, and a car in the carport, And you're a grownup and still unsure, And I'm thirty, and I don't know nothing no more. --Everything But The Girl\/25th of December I can believe things that are true and things that aren't true and I can believe things\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Words"","block_context":{"text":"Words","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?cat=7"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":591,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=591","url_meta":{"origin":3475,"position":1},"title":"And all I ever meant to do was to keep you","author":"Michelle","date":"August 2, 2013","format":false,"excerpt":"And under the boughs unbowed All clothed in a snowy shroud She had no heart so hardened All under the boughs unbowed Each feather it fell from skin Till threadbare while she grew thin --the Decemberists\/the Crane Wife 3 \u00a0 Sound the keening bell To see it's painted red Soft\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Music"","block_context":{"text":"Music","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?cat=9"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":10577,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=10577","url_meta":{"origin":3475,"position":2},"title":"Being a Duck","author":"Michelle","date":"September 29, 2015","format":false,"excerpt":"When I was in college, I didn't like football. \u00a0Traumatized by love gone wrong with a left-handed quarterback, I decided football fandom wasn't for me. 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