{"id":6063,"date":"2014-06-13T02:35:00","date_gmt":"2014-06-13T09:35:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=6063"},"modified":"2014-06-13T02:33:24","modified_gmt":"2014-06-13T09:33:24","slug":"and-youre-not-talking","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=6063","title":{"rendered":"Another nonversation with myself"},"content":{"rendered":"

You aren’t talking
\nAgain
\nAnd
\nI want to know
\nEverything
\nAbout how
\nYour day was
\nWho you saw
\nWhat you are doing
\nAnd
\nYou aren’t there
\nSo
\nThe tears run
\nDown my cheeks
\nOnto my neck
\nI don’t stop them
\nHead down
\nEyes closed
\nAnd
\nI want to hear your voice
\nBut
\nYou aren’t there
\nMaybe
\nYou never were
\nOr
\nMaybe you are
\nAlways
\nAnd
\nThis is all about me
\nMy imagination
\nTaking over
\nAgain
\nBut
\nIf you aren’t talking
\nThen
\nThere isn’t anyone
\nWho will
\nTell my imagination
\nTo fuck off
\nI never listen
\nWhen I say it
\nBut
\nThis time
\nI think it might really
\nBe you
\nWhich is a thing
\nI am not sure
\nHow to handle
\nExcept by waiting
\nHoping
\nThat I am wrong
\nAgain
\nAnd
\nYou could prove it
\nTo me so easily
\nIf you would
\nSay something
\nBefore
\nI get over you
\nJudging from the visuals
\nThat will not happen.
\nPictures are hard
\nTo deny
\nAnd some people are
\nUnable
\nTo tell the truth
\nOr say goodbye
\nMe?
\nI could say it
\nBut
\nYou are not there
\nTo hear me <\/p>\n


\n
\n
\n
\n
\n
\n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You aren’t talking Again And I want to know Everything About how Your day was Who you saw What you are doing And You aren’t there So The tears run Down my cheeks Onto my neck I don’t stop them Head down Eyes closed And I want to hear your voice But You aren’t there … Continue reading Another nonversation with myself<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6187,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6063","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-words"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/michellejolin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/20140612-203358-74038701.jpg?fit=524%2C524&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-1zN","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":11570,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=11570","url_meta":{"origin":6063,"position":0},"title":"An imaginary conversation about the overactive imagination","author":"Michelle","date":"May 15, 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Sometimes when I'm reading your book, it's hard for me to separate the main character from you. 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