{"id":8348,"date":"2014-11-26T05:30:13","date_gmt":"2014-11-26T13:30:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/michellejolin.com\/wordpress\/?p=8348"},"modified":"2015-05-03T17:48:08","modified_gmt":"2015-05-04T00:48:08","slug":"an-imaginary-conversation-about-faith-hope-and-trust","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=8348","title":{"rendered":"An imaginary conversation about faith, hope and trust"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I saw this meme on Facebook the other day that has me a little worried. <\/p>\n<p>Only you would worry about a meme. <\/p>\n<p>It isn&#8217;t the meme so much as the message. <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m sure it was very profound. <\/p>\n<p>Are you going to just fling sarcasm at me, or maybe try listening?<\/p>\n<p>Oh! You mean you actually are worried?<\/p>\n<p>Do you have any idea how much I would like to punch you in the face right now? <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m sorry. I will listen as much as my worry about potential violence permits. <\/p>\n<p>Thanks. <\/p>\n<p>What did the meme say?<\/p>\n<p>It was a list of things that are relationship killers, and I think both of us may be afflicted with all of them. <\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s a good thing you aren&#8217;t in a relationship. <\/p>\n<p>Did you wake up on the &#8220;I&#8217;m a douchebag&#8221; side of the bed this morning? <\/p>\n<p>Sorry. Apparently I did. You aren&#8217;t the only one who has noticed. <\/p>\n<p>Don&#8217;t take it out on me. I am not in the mood. <\/p>\n<p>I will try. <\/p>\n<p>Thanks. Anyway, you aren&#8217;t in a relationship either. Or so you have not said. <\/p>\n<p>So&#8230;the relationship killers are what?<\/p>\n<p>Insecurity, jealousy, assumptions, trust issues and lack of communication. Recognize anyone?<\/p>\n<p>You?<\/p>\n<p>Well, I was thinking of you, but whatever. <\/p>\n<p>You think I am insecure?<\/p>\n<p>Also jealous, lacking in trust and not so talented at communicating. <\/p>\n<p>Glad you think I have so many good points. <\/p>\n<p>I do think you have a lot of good points. If you weren&#8217;t so insecure you would remember that I mentioned several of them to you the other day. <\/p>\n<p>Ouch.<br \/>\nI am not insecure though. Not at all. <\/p>\n<p>Calling bullshit on that. You are terrifically insecure, but you mask it with almost unbearable cockiness. At least I have the guts to be openly insecure. <\/p>\n<p>Competitive insecurity. Nice.<br \/>\nI do admit to being jealous sometimes. <\/p>\n<p>But not to trust issues or poor communication?<\/p>\n<p>OK. Yes. Both.<br \/>\nAre you really worried about this shit?<\/p>\n<p>You don&#8217;t think it is a problem if we have a hard time trusting each other?<\/p>\n<p>I trust you. It isn&#8217;t mutual?<\/p>\n<p>We have talked about it before. You typically are less than open most of the time. You let me find things out accidentally that it would be better to find out directly from you. The lack of communication leads me to make assumptions and stop trusting you. One thing fuels another. <\/p>\n<p>That is probably true. <\/p>\n<p>And?<\/p>\n<p>And I do the best I can.<br \/>\nDon&#8217;t look at me like that&#8211;I do!<\/p>\n<p>I know. I am not sure it&#8217;s enough. <\/p>\n<p>Up to you. <\/p>\n<p>I know. I can only change my own side and hope for it to get better. <\/p>\n<p>Faith. You need to have faith. <\/p>\n<p>Which is a challenge when things keep happening that undermine it. <\/p>\n<p>Faith.<\/p>\n<p>Talk to me. <\/p>\n<p>Stop banging your head on the counter. Whimpering won&#8217;t solve anything.<br \/>\nYou know my intentions are not bad. <\/p>\n<p>Do I? By osmosis?<br \/>\nIs it enough for your intentions to not be bad? I think I might need them to be more actively good. <\/p>\n<p>Faith. <\/p>\n<p>Trying.<br \/>\nIt is wearing thin. Do they make a patch for it?<br \/>\nWhat happens when it&#8217;s gone?<\/p>\n<p>It won&#8217;t be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I saw this meme on Facebook the other day that has me a little worried. Only you would worry about a meme. It isn&#8217;t the meme so much as the message. I&#8217;m sure it was very profound. Are you going to just fling sarcasm at me, or maybe try listening? Oh! You mean you actually &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=8348\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">An imaginary conversation about faith, hope and trust<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[18,7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8348","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-imaginary-conversation","category-words"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7lr3R-2aE","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":7262,"url":"https:\/\/michellejolin.com\/?p=7262","url_meta":{"origin":8348,"position":0},"title":"An imaginary conversation about imaginary football boyfriends","author":"Michelle","date":"August 29, 2014","format":false,"excerpt":"You know what? 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