You know what is hard for me?<\/p>\n
Asking for moral support?<\/p>\n
No. Well, yes, but that isn’t what I was going to say.<\/p>\n
What?<\/p>\n
Figuring out what to write when I have no ideas at all.<\/p>\n
You always think of something.<\/p>\n
But sometimes it is just crap.<\/p>\n
That is an exaggeration.<\/p>\n
Not much of one. I can admit it. The dilemma is that I don’t know if it is better to just skip a day rather than write shit.<\/p>\n
You can skip a day whenever you want. The blog police don’t care.<\/p>\n
No, but I do. Plus I get twitchy and wake up in the middle of the night if I don’t post something.<\/p>\n
You should probably get over that.<\/p>\n
Probably. I could use the discipline for other things. Like exercising and eating properly.<\/p>\n
Is that how it works?<\/p>\n
Pretty much. I only have enough discipline for 3 things at a time. Right now, those things are going to work every day, making my bed every day, and writing every day.<\/p>\n
You make your bed every day?<\/p>\n
Ever since May.<\/p>\n
I don’t think of you as the bed making type.<\/p>\n
I am really not. This is the first time in my whole life I have ever kept my room clean for an extended period of time.<\/p>\n
So why don’t you swap that discipline for exercise?<\/p>\n
I kind of like having a clean room now. I think I am turning into a different person.<\/p>\n
Different how?<\/p>\n
More tidy. More willing to talk to people I don’t know. More open. More willing to take emotional risks.<\/p>\n
Those are good things.<\/p>\n
They are. I’m still figuring it all out.<\/p>\n
It sounds like a lot of forward motion.<\/p>\n
There has been some bad stuff, too. Funny though. It turns out that one of the person who generated a lot of the bad stuff was a catalyst for most of the good stuff.<\/p>\n
Silver linings…<\/p>\n
Hard to be mad at someone who generates positive changes, even if they were shitty to you in the end.<\/p>\n
Not for most people.<\/p>\n
No? Well, I have never been very good at being mad. Plus, even though i found a lot of his behavior unacceptable, it doesn’t mean I am not grateful for all of the good things he did.<\/p>\n
You’re a better man than I am.<\/p>\n
Are either of us men?<\/p>\n
Oh. Right. Good point.<\/p>\n
Well, at least you have something to write about now.<\/p>\n
I do?<\/p>\n
I have a feeling you do.<\/p>\n
What’s that?<\/p>\n
Finding the positive side of a bad situation.<\/p>\n
Ugh. It’s been done to death.<\/p>\n
Everyone can use a reminder that nothing is ever all bad.<\/p>\n
Maybe so.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"