I have been feeling a bit..positive..but overwhelmed lately.
\nIt seems like there is a lot of shit to keep track of and I don’t feel much like doing it. Keeping track, I mean. <\/p>\n
For instance, I really need to get my car serviced.
\nFuck. Hang on. I am going to make the appointment now.
\nDone. <\/p>\n
OK. Now remind me to check my oil the next time I am near my car when it’s light outside. Thanks. <\/p>\n
Also? If someone could remind me to go to an ATM and see if my new card works, that would be great. <\/p>\n
And I need to make sure I remember to buy milk because I am having a whole lot of people over for cereal on Sunday. I wonder if I have enough Pop Tarts?<\/p>\n
I don’t really have that much stuff to keep track of compared to most people. My life is really pretty simple. Maybe I have been doing too much social stuff and not spending enough time alone. That does make me a little dumb. <\/p>\n
Or, maybe I am overthinking this and just need to get over myself and make a fucking list. <\/p>\n
Nah. Overthinking?! Me??!<\/p>\n
So, yes. Definitely too much focus on the social, which makes me all muzzy. It’s the introvert’s dilemma: to meet new people, you have to go out. Going out makes an introvert mentally and emotionally tired. If you go out and it goes well, they want to see you again. Which is more going out. <\/p>\n
So I am handling it by having 15 or 20 people over this weekend. That will put an end to any semblance of sanity. Then I will hole up and not see anyone for a week. Except Paddy. We sing on Monday. After Monday, I will do introvert hibernation. I’ve only been able to get a few nights a week. I think I need more than that..<\/p>\n
I only have one other social thing this weekend, so that is good. And bad. Kinda wish I had a social thing with this one guy, but I don’t…<\/p>\n
Oh well. Things are really pretty great right now, in spite of my relative inability to keep track of simple domestic tasks. Or write a coherent post. <\/p>\n
Life is good!<\/p>\n
Maybe I write better when I have more angst. <\/p>\n
Don’t care. Happy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"