Here comes the judge

An anti-fur group (the Anti-Fur Society) on Facebook posted a link to this story in the Daily Mail about Rihanna arriving at Heathrow wearing what appears to be a fox fur lined jacket. One of my Facebook friends shared the post and commented on it. I read the post, read the story, shrugged and started reading the comments.

The comments on the Daily Mail’s website are pretty bad. Terms like stupid pig are thrown out. The anti-fur site is much, much worse. The singer is a called a whore, slag, cunt, bitch, ugly and stupid cow among other things. There is not one single rational argument against wearing fur in any of the 800 plus comments. There are plenty of rational arguments that could be made, of course. Even as someone who has been known to wear fur on occasion, I can come up with some. I’m not going to here, because why should I do their work for them?

Me? I don’t care if people wear fur. I wear leather. I eat meat. I don’t care if people hunt for meat, but I’m not thrilled about hunting for trophies. I do understand why other people might have reservations about any or all of those things, even strong reservations. I can understand why people would be anti-meat or anti-fur activists. What I don’t understand is why the only form of commentary used on this particular page against those who disagree with their views was to degrade the person they disagreed with.

The best anyone could come up with about why Rihanna shouldn’t wear fur is to call her a fucking cunt.

Wanna call me a cunt because I ate lamb for lunch or because I’m wearing leather shoes? Do you think it’s OK to refer to me in print as a fucking bitch if I wear a fox collar? I’ll put it on for you. Go ahead and call me whatever you want. See where it gets you.

Mostly, It gets you nowhere. If your best argument against wearing fur is “you’re a fucking cunt” then you lose. Demeaning women who disagree with your views accomplishes nothing. In fact it turns people away from your cause. That is true regardless of what your cause is.

It puts you in the same category as bullies like the Westboro Baptist Church.

If you’ve followed the success rate of their tactics at all, you may have noted that gay marriage is considered perfectly acceptable by more Americans than ever. People find them and their views repellant. That is what happens when you spew hate.

If you have to demean human beings to defend your cause, then this particular fucking bitch is not going to support you. It doesn’t matter what your cause is.
















Sunday at home

Certain places are home.
For me, that’s Eugene. Or, rather, the Eugene-Springfield area as a whole.

I haven’t lived there since the mid-eighties, but it’s still home. Portland is also home. I’ve also lived in Oklahoma and France, and they could never be.

Driving down I-5 South from Tigard to Eugene, the thing that tells me I am home is when I start seeing those random hills plunked down in all the fields north of Harrisburg.

It’s not the miles left to travel, it’s the scenery. Hawks on fence posts. Lambs frolicking in the fields in the Spring. Green fields and hills. The mountains in the distance on either side of the freeway.

It’s hard to be sure, but I am pretty sure that anyone would think it is one of the lovelier stretches of scenery anywhere on an interstate. You’d have to have a thing for mountains, valleys, trees and emerald green fields. How could you not?

Then there’s having a room that is your room even if it’s in a house you’ve never lived in. Where people always love you. Even if they don’t necessarily always like you.

It would be easy for me to define why Texas or Oklahoma could never be home to me. The people are friendly and hospitable, but the landscape is foreign to me. That would be both the literal landscape as well as the religious and political landscape. France is beautiful and politically less strange to me than Oklahoma, but the people…well…let’s just say home could never be somewhere where a young woman can pass out on a train and be completely ignored. France cares more about style and food than it does about people. Or at least that is the feeling France evoked in me. I could never be home in a place that feels so emotionally freezing.

Home is where the hippies still flourish. Where you can stop and smell the patchouli. Where everything smells green and, sometimes, very herbal. Where people argue about where to get the best coffee and beer. Where you hate Huskies way more than Beavers. Where we cherish every ray of sun, and wear sandals in the Winter. Where people won’t carry umbrellas even though we know it’s going to rain. Where you still see VW vans. Where we go to the beach even in February. Where people eat fish, crabs and clams they caught themselves. Where people complain that it’s too crowded if there are more than 10 people on the same 2 mile stretch of beach.

When you live in a town with mountains in every direction, and a river or two running through it, you are one of the luckiest people on the planet.

If you’re me, your home is here. In one of the most beautiful places there is.

I might like to travel, but the best part will always be coming home.

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Beer tattoo

She was walking on a wooded trail, looking up at the sky through the trees when she tripped on something.

It was a tiny, ancient looking metal box, with slits on the top and sides. Heavy for the size. The box seemed to be alive, only afterwards she wasn’t really able to say why she had that impression. The best she could come up with was that it had a living energy.

Something reached out of the box and touched her hand, just below the thumb. She thought she heard the words “help me, ” or maybe it was just the wind, or tiny bells.

Startled, she dropped the box.

There was a red mark like a tattoo where the tiny hand had touched her. A poppy encircled with tangled vines, with some sort of word entwined in them, in an alphabet and language she didn’t recognize.

She tried to find the box, but it was gone.

The mark on her hand didn’t go away. It didn’t bleed or hurt, it was just there. It was larger than the box had been, about 2 inches across. She didn’t understand how something as tiny as the thing that touched her could have made such a large mark. Or how such a brief contact could have created such an elaborate design.

She made some attempts to figure out what the word was, but without knowing what language it was in she didn’t have any success.

At times it seemed to take on a luminescent quality, but she thought she must be imagining that.

She tried not to think about it.

Weeks  later, she went to a party. She got a beer out of the cooler with a pretty black label with a red poppy on it,  and noticed a mark on the back of the  bottle that was just like the one on her hand. The beer was delicious. The brewery was called Poppy Side.

It wasn’t a brewery she was familiar with, and the hosts of the party couldn’t recall where they purchased it. It was the only bottle of that particular beer in the cooler. She  took the bottle home with her.

The next morning, the mark on the label was almost invisible. She thought perhaps she’d imagined it entirely, but could see it if she held it up to the light. She took a picture of it hoping to make it last long enough to find Poppy Side. The address was a in small town nearby. She wasn’t able to turn anything up in a Google search, aside from an address for the brewery. No phone number.

The next day, she drove out in the country to the address listed for the brewery.

She found only an empty and an old farmhouse. No one answered the door, but peeking through the curtains it did appear to be inhabited.

She left a note on the door with a printout of a picture of the beer bottle, asking them to give her a call if they knew anything about the brewery that shared their address.

Two days later, she got a call from a woman named Jenny about her note. Jenny said that her son Jaime used to do some brewing from the farm, but he had been missing for about two years. She said he had been starting to have some success,  went to a meeting in town to discuss a distribution deal and hadn’t returned. She reported his disappearance to the police, but since he’d had a history of heroin abuse and past disappearances, they were not willing to provide much help. But he had been seemingly clean for over a year before he disappeared. All the other times, there’d been signs of trouble. The gradual decline in work, increase in hiding and lying. This time, though, he’d seemed happier than he’d ever been. She hoped he’d come back when he had everything sorted out. She didn’t seem to be too worried that he’d never return.

Jenny didn’t know anything about the beer itself. The bottle was one of her son’s. She didn’t remember any marks on the label though, but said given her son’s past problems she had been annoyed that he’d used a poppy on the label at all. He told her that poppies were a symbol of memory and he was trying to move forward while honoring what he’d been through to get to the present.

She thanked Jenny for her time, and went to the library to see if she could get some more information about Jaime or the beer he brewed. The librarian helped with the search, but all she found were a few arrest reports, and one review of the beer on a homebrew site.

She emailed the person who ran the homebrew site to see if they knew the brewer or had been in contact with him.

A few days later, she got an email asking her to subscribe to the Homebrew Review and an email from the woman who ran the site. The woman seemed to have more questions than answers. She was also very interested in contacting the brewer, but said she hadn’t heard from him in over 2 years. She was surprised that the beer had never been produced on a larger scale. She didn’t know anything about the brewer, except that he was a hobby brewer who hoped to “go pro” soon. The woman said she’d let the Homebrew Review know if she heard from the brewer.

As she read the email, she had the impression that the beer tattoo was a more glowing red  than it had been before. She brushed a hand across it, and thought she must be mistaken. It was the same matte crimson it had always been. Was she just imagining that a new tendril from the poppy mark was starting to unfurl as if it was about to wrap around her wrist? She shook her head, mostly sure it was her imagination.

Mostly sure.

There must be some explanation. She just needed to find that little box that had stamped her hand.

She went into the kitchen to pour herself a cup of coffee. As she set the pot down, she heard something at the kitchen door. When she opened the door, there was nothing there, but she thought she heard laughing. Laughing, or tiny bells.

As she turned around to pick up her coffee cup, she noticed it was half empty. Right next to it, there was a tiny metal box with slits in the top and sides. The same one.

She bent down to get a closer look, careful not to get close enough for it to touch her. It was a tiny, ornate cage. Inside the cage she could see two red eyes looking back at her. And the little creature was laughing.

She was not at all sure that it was a good sort of laugh. Every peal of laughter seemed to make the tendrils on the vine on her hand unfurl a little more. Like a real one would. One that would completely overwhelm the tree it grew on.

She wondered what that would mean if there was a human being supporting the vine instead of a tree.