Category: Words

This weekend is the first one I have had in several weeks where I didn’t have a full schedule. I had some things to do around the house, watched a bunch of movies, did some reading, nothing too terribly stimulating. No thinking, no writing to speak of.

I threw a bunch of junk away.

I enjoyed it.

I almost always enjoy myself, even by myself.

Am I just settling for an adequate life? Am I not living life to the utmost?
I suppose a lot of people might think so.

Do I care?
Nuh Uh.

Settling? Adequate?
Comfortable?

Or content? Peaceful?

Yes, that.
And I’m enjoying it.

As I got ready to leave work Friday afternoon, I was suddenly quite excited to realize that I do not have any plans this weekend. A lot of people would think that’s a shame, but not me. I am really looking forward to just doing whatever.

Reading, watching a movie or listening to music.
Getting a key made for someone.
Drinking hot tea.
Staring into candles.
A drive to the beach.

Somehow the house is relatively clean, so I can skate on housework.
I can do whatever I want.

Even if what I want is…nothing in particular.

I am very behind in my reading…
I could start now.

Ooh! Or should I watch a movie?

I will make a cup if tea to help me decide.

Movie.
It was a good choice.
Merci, mon Capitaine.

Will anyone be surprised that I find everything surprising? I seem to muddle through life in a constant state of surprised amazement. What does that say about me? That I appreciate everyday magic? That I just don’t notice things until they go all blammo?

Sunrises, sunsets
Kindness
Light on the water
The roar of the crowd at Autzen
Smiles
Laughter
Wind rustling leaves
Music
Books
Unexpected 53 minute phone calls
The stillness of the air when you go up in a balloon
How it’s suddenly dark when I go to work in the morning this week
How good clean sheets feel
Catching someone looking at you..like that

Several times a day, I find myself saying “wow” about something. It might be anything. It might be nothing. Crossing the street, seeing a particularly interesting shadow, or the way a yellow leaf stains the sidewalk after it rains.

I’m not sure it’s really congruous with the way I overthink everything, but it means I smile for no particular reason a lot.

Wonder.

It is a very good thing.