“maybe you should try to quit”
“Hey! Hey-I ain’t no fuckin’ quitter.”
–Coffee and Cigarettes
Not a quitter? Well.
Piano lessons? Flute? Bassoon? Quit
Cross country team? Quit
Arabic? Quit
Russian? Quit
Cigarettes? Quit. Well. Mostly.
Belly dancing? Quit
Running? Quit
Spin class? Quit
I don’t typically quit something immediately. I am too vain. Or is it stubborn?I finish a class, or a series of lessons, or a season and THEN quit. So, does that make me a quitter or someone who tries things out and then stops doing the ones I don’t like? Hmm?
It’s manifesting itself in a couple of odd ways right now. For instance, I am very hesitant to go a day without writing because I am afraid I will never start again. I am also persisting in reading a book that I really having a hard time getting into because I just don’t want to call myself a quitter.
Couldn’t I just tell myself that it doesn’t matter if I finish every book that I start? Or that finishing things is only important for SOME things?
I have been telling myself that I don’t have to write every day, but it doesn’t seem to be sticking. It might be time to get out the running shoes again. To run. Not to escape from writing.
Or would I rather try a paint brush. Weaving?
Jewelry making?
What I really NEED to do is take a class on focus and persistence.
Or decision making.
