so here I’m sitting in my car at the same old stop light
I keep waiting for a change but I don’t know what
so red turns into green turning into yellow
but I’m just frozen here in the same old spot
and all I have to do is to press the pedal
but I’m not.
–Aimee Mann/It’s Not
A lot of us go through life always feeling a little bit like we’re muffled. Like everything has a dimmer switch on it. Like we’re waiting. For what? For…more. It’s like being stuck at a stop light.
Sometimes you have to press the pedal. Maybe you don’t know where the car will go. Maybe you hope you do. Maybe you have no idea, but you just need to not be in the same spot any more. Maybe it’s an awful idea and you crash. Maybe you get out of a spot you’ve been stuck in. Maybe you end up somewhere amazing.
Only you know when it’s the right time.
But there is only so long that you can sit at the same old stop light. At a certain point, you have to decide to move. Which way you go is up to you. When you do, there will be things and people that might be left behind.
Some of them will be Important to you.
You will lose some of them. You will gain others. You probably won’t really get to choose, even if it seems like you do.
Only you can decide when you are ready to move, and which road you will take.
It’s late, I’ve been drinking a little. I’ve been thinking how lucky I am to know the people I do. To have the friends I have.
I hope I don’t lose too much on the road I’m on.
I think it’s the right road. I think I will gain something I have been looking for.
The light is green and I am stepping on the gas.