Too distracted for writing…

Why am I distracted?

Oh, for several reasons. 

I have a new mattress. I really want to go to bed and try it out. It may be that I am in bed at a very unreasonably early hour doing just that.  Clean sheets and a new mattress are pretty hard to beat. 

Maybe I can muster up enough attention for some gratitude. Gratitude is always a good thing, right?

  1. New mattresses
  2. Clean sheets
  3. The sound of rain on an aluminum roof
  4. Music
  5. Books
  6. Tinted windows and foggy glass
  7. Left handed golf clubs
  8. Berry colored lip gloss
  9. Clear communication
  10. Serendipity 
  11. Silver linings 
  12. Animal prints
  13. Smiles
  14. Blue skies peeking through black clouds
  15. Learning to use an acetyline torch
  16. Coffee
  17. Cheese
  18. Hot showers
  19. Kissing
  20. Cherry blossom snow
  21. Noodles
  22. Mint tea
  23. Dark chocolate

Say goodnight, Gracie!

Loaning a book

Everyone who knows me at all knows how I feel about books. 

In case you don’t, here is a summary statement: I love them. 

I learned to read before I even have memories. One of my first memories is sitting in my Mother’s lap. She’s holding a book about a squeaky bicycle. Reading to me. I am unhappy because she is skipping pages. “No, Mommy. That isn’t how it goes.” I flipped back the pages, pointed my grubby little toddler finger at the words, and read them to her. 

How old was I? I really don’t know. Little. Very little. Maybe four?

In my mind, I have no identity that is separate from reading. I have always read. I have gotten in trouble for wanting to read “one more chapter” my whole life. I still neglect things at home in order to read. I stay up too late if a book is interesting. I simply cannot imagine a life without books. I don’t want to imagine it.

I love books in all forms. Old. New. Hard cover. Paperback. Some people were put off by e-books. To me it was simply a way to always have my books with me. If I love a book, there is a very good chance that I own it in both physical and electronic formats. It is incredibly comforting to me to have all of Jane Austen’s novels with me at all times.  Plus, from a practical standpoint I also love that electronic books do not require dusting or shelf space. Moving them is simple. Some day, they need to figure out the licensing so they can be loaned out more easily from both individual people and from libraries.

Some people have issues with loaning books. Me, too. I tend to dislike the risk of loaning out a cherished book. However there are some books that I feel so strongly about that they live in a perpetual state of loan.  

One of the best things that can ever happen is for me to recommend a book to someone who loves it as much as I do. It’s rare. People have very different tastes. I am a bit of a reading omnivore. I read trash. I read French 19th Century classics. I read modern literary fiction. On occasion I’ll even read non-fiction or self help books. 

“The Sparrow” and “Children of God” by Mary Doria Russell  are the two books that really never come home. 

It started with my parents. Mom read  them, and she liked them so much that had Larry read them. I was up for a holiday, and she loaned me her copy of the Sparrow and said I could have Children of God as soon as Larry was done. I couldn’t wait. I bought a copy as soon as I was finished, and also a copy of the Sparrow. 

Then I started telling people about it. 

My book club. 

Every reader I know. 

Strangers on the street who I’d overhear talking about good books.

My in-laws.

Strangers online.

I have probably loaned out the books twenty or more times over the years.  A few months ago, I loaned them to a co-worker. He finished it and  brought “the Sparrow” back today. I handed it straight over to another co-worker.

It is in a sad state of repair. There is a section that falls out. The cover comes off. It’s fallen in the bath and nearly died. It has been read nearly to death.

It’s the Velveteen Rabbit of books, except in this case I think that if I love a book hard enough it’s ME who becomes more real.

You should read it. 

It’s simple

Missed me missed me now you’ve got to kiss me
If you kiss me mister you must think im pretty 
If you think so mister you must want to fuck me 
If you fuck me mister it must mean you love me 
If you love me mister you would never leave me
It’s as simple as can be

–Dresden Dolls/Missed Me

It’s not simple.

Or is it simple but not easy?

Maybe it is easy but there are several steps?

Maybe the steps are simple but have to be executed in a particular timed sequence. 

Maybe I tripped and fell down the steps. 

Maybe I stepped over the edge. 

I could have been a little too edgy. 

Some people don’t like hard edges. 

A rolled hem doesn’t have a hard edge.

You shouldn’t roll people. 

It’s illegal.